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Storytime edition:

Once upon a time, the internet was this new, unexplored territory. I mean, wow! Anyone could get a site if they wanted one. So, I started with a Geocities site, then worked my way to my own domain name. I have not looked back since.
Part of the early site was when I was really trying to do something meaningful on the web. I wanted to have an impact and be known for something more than just being a stay at home mom and a college student. I had pages on attachment parenting, cloth diapering, breastfeeding, and many others. I joined online forums. In fact I was in an AOL parenting forum while in early labor with Aidan. I made friends, I made enemies, and I made mistakes. It was like adopting a whole new culture.

But that is not what this particular entry is about. This entry is an update to this. Go, read it- I will wait.

And yet, I am tired. I am worn thin, and am not sure how to deal with it. I would let others in and have them be a support, but they often don't understand what is going on. Having to continually explain it makes me feel so alone sometimes. Chris is a wonderful support, and I know he is getting it, but he is also concerned, frustrated, and feels powerless when things happen. I know that my friends are unsure what to do to help. I know society has no clue, and would rather write him off as someone who can't be helped. What can our family, friends, neighborhood, community, & society do?

Thanks to the Punjab Patty wedding, I was introduced to a Social Distortion song that brings me to tears. (pop up warning)

Konal says I am the strongest mom he knows.
Sometimes I wonder...
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Cross-posted from Krista's Thoughts.
So, as evidenced by the badges on my blog, I signed up for NaBloPoMo this year. That fancy acronym states that I made a commitment to post once per day on my blog. I made a few more rules for myself:

1) Quizzes, memes, and fluff do not count.
2) I am going to cross post to MySpace and LJ since I know not everyone visits here, and those blogs might as well get a work out.

Today I am going to talk about my medical stuff, and how I feel about it. This is very important to me, because I tend to focus on everyone else and ignore my stuff. Right now I have two major things going on that are impacting my daily functioning.

The first is one that Konal caused during a rage episode. I was disengaging from him and letting the CFSS staff take over. As I was walking away, he went after me and punched me full force in the back, specifically on the spine. This caused a severe muscle spasm that affected the shoulder and was just plain painful. I visited the doctor for it and got X-rays, muscle relaxers (Flexeril) and Painkillers (Percoset).

I saw a new (for me) Nurse Practitioner at my doctor's office. She asked me my least favorite question, "What is going to happen as he gets older and bigger". I think I will save my thoughts on that one for tomorrow's post.

When I returned to the doctor's office on Tuesday, I found out that I have scoliosis of my spine. The reason the punch affected me so badly is that he hit the weaker muscles on the curved section. The basic treatment is rest and the muscle relaxer.

Today I had an appointment with my new endocrinologist. I love this woman- she is actually finding things to treat instead of shrugging her shoulders and moving on. The results of the large amount of blood work she ordered is a slightly high free testosterone, a bad ratio of certain hormones to other hormones and a very high DHEAS level. It is still PCOS, but this means it is PCOS based in my adrenal glands instead of my ovaries. I have to get an ultrasound of my adrenal glands to make sure there are no masses, then an ACTH (Cortrosyn) stimulation test to see if steroids will lower my DHEA level. There is also a small mass on my thyroid which we are not going to worry about. She will check it again next year, and if it has grown, then it will be investigated. I am to keep taking the spironolactone to help with the testosterone and keep my cycle going. She can't raise it anymore, though, because I already have low blood pressure and it will lower it further.

And that is where I am at....

Tune in tomorrow, when we will discuss that famous question:
"What about when he is older and bigger?"

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